Why?

Why?
Almost every day of my life
As I wake up to greet the comforting blue sky,
Welcoming another day,
Another chance,
I cannot help but ask.
Why?

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The world is breathtaking,
It's many colors and views
Every flower from each garden,
All the animals from different crews
Each attraction from all the countries,
Priceless moments,
Unforgettable sights.

•••

People can be amazing,
They can be helpful,
Humans --
They can let you laugh in the darkest of times
They can make you smile in your deepest despairs
They will give you memories to cherish and hold onto till death
They will make you feel beautiful,
Let you love yourself.

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But. . .
why?

•••

Despite the rainbows,
The princesses and the nice tomorrows,
Why do they have to stop?
Why can't there be no last drop?
Why does the color have to be smeared,
With the shadows and harsh tears?
Why can we not stay,
In this continuing endless play?
Why do we need to frown,
To be sad because everything's down?
Why can't they all be nice?
Because I'm sure, our happiness would then be thrice.

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I have lots of questions
But I am not rich with time,
I have lots of whys,
But I'll say this one before my very last rhyme
So answer me,
Universe,
World,
Humans,
Brain
If you'd even dare or try.


•••

Here it finally is,
No more exes and os
No more arrows and bows,
Because here I finally go,
Telling you with one straight blow.
I am hurt, I am broken, I am cursed.
Everything is evil.
I know, I've said it billions of times.
You've read it from every article in each and every line
But in this case,
There is no bright side.
There is no right,
Even if you string all your might.

•••

So now you're probably wondering,
How did I say it was evil?

•••

BECAUSE IT CREATED SUNSHINES,
IT TUCK ME TO SLEEP AND SANG A LULLABY,
IT GAVE ME PARENTS AND MY BIRTHRIGHT
IT LET ME SEE THE BEAUTY, THE WONDERS,
IT LOVED ME AND I ADORED IT
IT CREATED MAGIC, JOY, AND INDESCRIBABLE FEELINGS
IT GAVE ME DIAMONDS, GOLD
MORE THAN ANYTHING I'D EVER LIKE
BUT IN THE END,
IN THE END WHAT, WHAT DID IT DO?
IT DECEIVED, IT STAINED, IT WAS NOT TRUE
IT MADE THE PAIN SO MUCH WORSE
THAN THE HAPPINESS I THOUGHT WAS NOT BLUE
IT WAS BAIT,
IT KILLS, IT BREAKS, IT FAKES,
LEAVING ME ALONE TO CONTEMPLATE
I CRY IN THE NIGHT
HOPING, WISHING, PRAYING,
THAT MY PATHETIC LITTLE BEAM OF LIGHT
WOULD ERASE MY FRIGHT
TRYING TO ASSURE MYSELF,
THAT THIS WAS NOT RIGHT.

•••

My dear happiness,
My love,
My smiles, and my dreams,
My hopes, and all my merry days
Why, why, why?
Do you laugh at my cries?

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My Other Half

Sometimes,
I am nice.
I am loving, helpful, and kind
I am innocent
I adore the whole world
I love everyone
I like everything.

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Sometimes,
I am wicked
I accidentally release
The demons from the cage
I can despise you
Desire your death
I can be dangerous
And hope for your worst

•••

I try to stop
I try to control
Stop being the wrong
And be a friendly soul
I try to shut up
I try closing my mouth
But my words have pierced a soul
And sorry ain't enough
I try to let things become better
But I then make things worse
I try making you smile
But I end up being sad

•••

I have two faces.
Two sides, two traces
One is innocent, beautiful, and nice
The other,
Horrible, mean, and unrefined

•••

I am sorry,
Sorry for every single thing
I am a monster,
Destructive and irresponsible
I am frightened just as you
Of what my other half
Can surprisingly do

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Against All

Tears, tears, and tears

Overthinking, anxiety, stress.

Eternal darkness fills my vision

As the never ending cycle greets me

like an old friend

It's always my fault, isn't it?

And I'm always wrong

I'm the bad one.

I'm the worst.

Damage me some more, will you?

cause you can't break what's already broken!

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This is my life,

This is how things always are

How things always will be

I don't know what to feel

I don't know what to do

I don't want to eat

I don't want to go out

I don't want to go to school

I don't want to wake up

I don't want to live.

I don't believe in the "possible"

and I never really had

But I couldn't ever believe in the reality

When the unbelievable, the unlikely, the fairytale,

The unthinkable, the unspeakable, the fantasy

the fictional, the imaginary,

ALL THE WORDS FOR IMPOSSIBLE!

Actually, actually, actually,

came true.

From billions of years,

Locked in the darkness,

He came

He came like light,

Shining and glowing

In the black inside of me.

He came out of nowhere,

And made me know

What happiness truly is.

He came in like

sudden wind flying through your hair

on windy days

He came like the coolness of

your favorite chocolate ice cream

Moving through your head,

attacking you with a brain freeze

I simply failed to see that he was there,

Always, he was with me

But now, I know

And I'm not letting go.

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To be able to see light again

In this, horrid, horrid world

Felt so different

As though I had a rebirth

I could lift cars,

Fly over the world,

read other people's minds,

I felt invincible!

Thanks to him

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Who is he?

He who melted my tears away,

He who made me feel welcome,

He who made me believe,

He who opened the door when all was shut,

He who erased all the problems,

He who made me laugh,

He who listened,

He who never left me alone, 

who was always there from the very start

Who is he?

When the world is against me,

And no one else cares,

I still have him,

I still have that one person who means the world

And he is, and always will be,

My Dad.

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In Front Of A TV Screen

Long long ago, 

When days were still bright

I faced the TV screen with all my might

Five candidates battling for the one and only title

Debating, giving their thoughts, 

The whole country with eyes and ears open

As if it were a recital 

       Photo from Rappler

Long long ago, 

When days were still bright

I faced the TV screen and got a fright

Is it true, what I had heard? 

The number one candidate, 

The most adored of all,

Laughing along, joking, 

JOKING ABOUT RAPE! 

And yet the millions, millions in this tiny country

Love him, 

Think that he, 

Is the solution for us all

Long long ago, 

When days were becoming packed with fights

I opened my eyes and faced the TV screen, 

Sleepy but still alive

It was true, it really was. . . 

He, the one and only 

The disrespectful

The unfair

The killing mayor, 

Has won the throne

Of this country that is about to fall

     Photo from Google Images

Long long ago, 

When days were still days

I faced the TV screen, slowly wanting to break

Random people being killed! 

With no such reason! 

BLOODY AND INNOCENT

And yet, he multiplies his tries

Mercilessly, with no such light

      Photo from Google Images

Long long ago, 

When I still had hope

I faced the TV screen, and accepted the shooting bow

Police, slamming these sticks 

Slamming them to everything they see 

BECAUSE NOW, NO ONE CARES

NO ONE CARES IF YOU'RE A HUMAN, 

DEAD OR ALIVE

BOY OR GIRL

BECAUSE IF THEY WANT WHAT THEY WANT, 

THEY WILL

No mercy, no love,

And yet you call this doofus

The best of all the rest

       Photo from Google Images

Good job, Philippines

You finally got what you wanted 

But the next time you see something, 

Bloody and innocent

I doubt that it shall anymore be

In front of that very TV screen

Away...

I have found a place

That no one else knows, 

Away

From my sorrows that grow

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Up in the clouds, 

Where you are free and away

In the fluffiness and vivid blue sky

Away

From all the lies and cries

      Photo from Pinterest

I have been to the deepest depths of the ocean, 

Filled with corals and starfish

Swimming like a mermaid

Away

From worries, from stress

      Photo from Pinterest

I have touched the stars, you see

Saw them with my own two eyes

Colorful, yellow, or green

Away

From cruelty, from all people

      Photo from Pinterest

I have been to castles, 

Met warriors and princesses

I've seen the oddest of things

Flying dogs, kind enemies, magical carpets

Away once more

From this horrid place you call the world

      Photo from Pinterest

Every night in this place I stay

Up in the clouds, away

In the city of my dreams, in my own thoughts

For in dreams we are in a world of our own

And anything can happen, I must say,

You can move trees and carry cars

Because as long as creativity is flowing, 

The impossible becomes possible, 

And you never know,

The real world could even become a place

Of your very own.

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