But it's not just the classes that makes me say I really feel like I'm growing up, though. I'm growing up in all the ways my imaginative, witty, four year old self could have ever imagined.
Let me write down what I mean. I've changed physically. When I was in third grade, all the girls were these tall giants and the boys were like ants. And now, being a teenager, suddenly it's like the grass is growing quickly and the boys have drunk some potion. I've shrunk! In the past, I was in the back of the line, and now, I'm suddenly fifth. Fifth?! Fifth! Sometimes you can not believe it at all.
Hormones are becoming active. According to mother, I am now able to resist sleep. Amazing! Yeah, only problem is you wake up to get an oily face. Ugh, pubic hair. Grose, right? Sometimes, I dislike reality because of this. And then, ugh, periods! You've got to go out of the classroom and hide your pad, and then it's another problem when your period leaks. I rarely ever get the stomach ache, but when I do, it is horrible. Another thing I hate about periods, is that grouchy mood. I do my best to hide the times whenever I've got a period, because when mom and dad find out, they'll all be "Oh, that's it! You've got your period! That's why you're annoyed!" or if I whine a lot, one of them would say, "Do you have your period?" Seriously. Wether or not she has it, and if she really does, why ask it? I swear it will just make her mood worse, since I feel like breaking a cement wall with a hammer when someone asks that.
And then there's that good side of life. Look, now you're smarter, and you've got more advantages! Sure there are more responsibilities, but there is still that wonderful bright side! You could never understand those letter stuff in Maths, and though you aren't at your best, look at you now! You've come a long long way. You just need a strong push to reach all your goals. And remember that day in the mall you'd spend with your friends, but you weren't allowed? Now, you're coming out of H&M with shopping bags like never before with your squad. Sometimes, life gets hard, but you can always look at the bright side of things. :)
And last but not the least, that forceful attitude of you wanting to fit in, of you caring what other people think of you. In the past, you didn't care if you wore a hundred butterfly clips on your hair, and had crooked teeth. And now, just a little flaw like the stray bangs will get you down. Listen, other people's opinions don't matter. Sure, it's hard to ignore what they think of you, but you've got to do what makes you happy. Don't overreact about tiny things. You won't ever live the best of life if you let other people get into your head, don't do what you want, and don't step out of that comfort zone. If you're all alone and your studies are hard, I think that you should approach God. He can make anything happen, and please, Athena, never ever doubt his kindness, mercy, and power. :) Think happy things, the whole year isn't devoted to your sadness event, alright? Besides, your friends and family will always have your back through the thick and thin.
Aside from wanting to fit in and caring about other people's opinions, there is suddenly that humanoid that makes you go all alaolaolaoalaooaloalaoalo. Yes. And now, you try to be at your best in looks and smarts because of that someone. But here's a little something you should know. Young love -__- , is not what your youth, your teenhood is completely and really made up of. It's a big part of it, yes, but it's not all about that. From my observations, 60% is like nothing but heart, heart, heart, love love, love, and sad, sad, sad in high school. It's also about spending the best of your precious life with your family, makng a difference with your studies, finding yourself, and sparking change.
Dear Future-Still-Teen-Me, if you are reading this right now, you should just know that all these things are normal. All that depression, all the hardwork, the confusion, and judgement, they will all pass. Keep your dreams in your mind, and don't let anything get you down. Go out of your comfort zone, be brave, and be the best person you could possibly be. If you're worrying with studies, know that anything is possible, so if Isaac Newton is a genius, you can be just like him. If you're worrying about all those judgie meanies and all those scary opinions, know that there are people who appreciate you for you, so you don't need judgements. They won't do you any good, negative thinking is unhealthy. Mean people don't matter because they aren't really important, they do not know anything about you. And if you're worrying about love. . . I think that the best advice I could give to you is to be who you are and wait. I am a believer as well of the saying that the person you are meant to be with will come no matter what at the right time, regardless how far he or she may be. And don't try to be someone you aren't. Love yourself, because the way you expect someone to love you perfectly as you'd imagined can only be activated bg you and you only. You know, it may happen that you yourself is the answer to what you really need in life. But for now, enjoy all those six teen years with your friends and family, and always be strong. If a ship sinks, it had a hole to let water pass in. But if you don't have a hole, and don't let the other people depress you, you'll stay floating.
1. Do what makes you happy.
2. Be yourself.
3. Step out of your comfort zone.
4. Ignore other people's comments. You have your own friends and appreciators.
5. Focus on your goals.
6. Stay strong and be kind.
7. Always. Always. Pray to God.______________
You are not alone with what you are going through, always remember that. This will all pass. Don't be afraid. Be the best you can be, and always remember that you have your family, friends, and God on your side.